GED. Ugh.

Since I'm home-schooled, and colleges are stupid, I have to jump through like a million hoops to be accepted. For OU, I have to have an interview (which is scheduled for Feb. 25th), and we have to make a portfolio of all my high-school work, or I have to take the GED. Since all of my previous school books and papers were kept in the basement and the basement flooded, all of my previous records are gone, so we can't very well make an acceptable portfolio. That leaves me to take the GED.

The GED has a history, two maths, a reading, a grammar, a poetry, and a science section. I think I'd be good with everything except the math sections and perhaps the history. Well, GED class orientations started yesterday so I went to that. We took a pre-test to find out what skills I lack and which skills I possess. Then tonight, depending on what scores we got yesterday, we took another pre-test to determine even further what problem spots I might have. As I suspected, all of my English portions were fine, as that is my very best subject and I always rock that up, fo shizzle. Not sure why I just said that...


However, the math portions, as I also suspected, were my points of weakness. After several more tests this evening, the lady told me that my English is perfect, but math leaves much to be desired. Mostly I think it's that I use a calculator for everything. I have a calculator that does fractions as well, so even that I do with technology, and not my brain. She told me that whenever I go to class in the future, I will be working specifically with fractions, decimals, division with remainders, and multiple-number multiplication, as these are the math questions that I don't remember how to do anymore. Hopefully it all comes back to me while I'm working on it, and I don't have to do it long. It feels pretty pathetic to me that I'm not even  smart enough to just take the GED. I am at such a level that I need to study it in class for a while. I mean, come on! The GED is what kids who drop out of high-school take!! It's for STUPID people!
Ughhh.
There goes my pride. Possibly all self-confidence. Any ego which I was in possession of prior to this point in time. Etc.